Ok, so the last two days have been interesting. Back story: my friend whom iv known since kindergarten started dating a girl whom I Butt heads with often.... and then after they started dating it got worse, cause I seem to have an issue with seeing my friends get bossed around... There must be something wrong with me, ya know cause that's crazy ( sarcasm) Well anyways, they have now been dating for a few years, and Me and her get along alot better now, But I mean it had to happen at some point. The truth was, Being friends with him so long i guess I started having feeling for him so it was hard for me to see him with anyone let alone her. But now I realize I was being immature, and I'm over it, and him. But yesterday, I got a call and it was her asking if she could crash at my place for the night.... so I said sure... she came over and we laughed alot, But I mean she talked about their relationship, and even If im not interested in him as I was... It almost kind of sad to hear. But I'm glad he is happy with her. We even stayed up all night planning out an entire camping trip, and it sounded awesome till this after noon when It fell through cause of my friend, her boyfriend telling us it was an aweful idea and terribly planned out.... oh well. But one thing last night that was interesting to me was that she was asking me about my guy issues.... well sadly enough I have none. But 2 years ago, a friend of mine had a thing for me and at the time I was just getting out of a bad relationship and didn't think twice about him... She asked me if I would ever give him a chance, course I said the ship has sailed, but It got me thinking. He's a great guy, and he's grown up alot. But he isn't what I found interesting it was that for the last 2 years I have pretty much ignored any guy I came in contact with cause I was in such a bad place for any kind of relationship. But when we talked about it, I felt like it might not be a bad time to allow someone into my life. The last 5 years had just been so bad that I didn't really want to worry about anyone else, which may be selfish but I mean it's human nature. Well it was kind of ironic because tonight me and my mom went to visit someone and we hadn't had dinner so we stopped at a strip of small eateries, and I went to get a sub well she got pizza and the guy who made my sub was adorable, very nice, and hilarious. Course I looked like crap with a bun head, my gym class sweater and a pair of running shorts. But It was nice to just look at a guy and not be cautious when I laugh at his joke, so I don't lead him on... I hate being the cautious one in every scenario but I'v always been that way. By the way I know that I probably sound like a boy crazed geek, but I'm just not closed off to the idea anymore... and by the way the sub took a long time to make so we were able to talk... and i was the only one in there so it wasn't like he said hi, and I fainted, and dreamed of us getting married. I just thought he was cute and was glad I wasn't being so uptight. anyways now that I've rambled on for a while, I'm gonna go to bed ~chao~
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